some people said :
"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends
listen to what you don't say."
"Friendship is one mind in two bodies."
"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not
lead. Walk beside me and be my friend.""A true friend is someone who knows
there's something wrong even when you have the biggest smile on your face."“The best kind of friend is the
kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.”“Friends are those rare people who
ask how you are and then wait to hear the answer”"A circle is round it has no end,
that's how long I want to be your friend!""It takes years to build
up trust, and just seconds to destroy it."
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ever since i was little girl, i had many friends,but none of them really stick around anymore. we separated and when to high school, when i was in form 1 i had this best friend from primary school, she was kind and everything i thought a best friend was, until i realised that she was just using me. calls me whenever she needs me, i was so dumb before. i felt cheated.
but luckily, i meet alexis, at the moment we meet, we talked a lot, and found of that we had many things in common. until now i still think she's the bestest friend i could ever had, there might not be a word to describe what a friend she is to me. but i can say, she is one of the best i had. she told me everything that was happening in my life, and so did i. it felt so good having a best friend beside you that you count on, or to look for when u needed one. and jacqueline was also one of my bestest friend. words aren't enough how mush they meant to me as my best friends.
as time pass, this picture of two best friends starts to get larger, i didn't hate it. we laughed more every single day, good times indeed. but until a certain when i realise that someone was replacing my place. which was heart-breaking, i didn't who to talk to, or i might as well just wait time to passed, and act like nothing's wrong. things get worst day by day, i felt like there's something that i didn't know and not suppose to know. the curiosity inmy head burns, seriosuly, it feel like i was hated my people, that was one of the feeling that i never wanted to feel. in my head, it was all, what are they talking bout? is it bout me? what's wrong with me? why don't i deserve to know? what had i've done? things were really messed up. but i still manage to laugh it off of me. the gap between alexis and i is just getting bigger and bigger, i don't know what to do. being replace mby someone
that you didn't like before hurts, you might not get what am i talking bout, i just wrote this just the sake of writing. all this time, i thought best friends was suppose to tell each another EVERYTHING, including bad ones. but nahhh, screw that. i don't believe in that anymore.
i really hope things might work out, she might not feel anything is wrong, but on my side everything is wrong. it felt like i just lost my best friend.
oh and one more thing, i seriously hate it when i ask what's going on, and i get this answer saying that, ' nothing, you wouldn't care.' okay, c'mon of course i wouldn't care if i didn't know, if i knew, at least i would give an effort to care bout it.
to
alexis :
i don't how am i suppose to tell you this, bcus to you it's nothing. but to me, honestly i didn't like that feeling. that crappy feeling.
i don't know what to do, i don't want to lose another best friend. grr
hope god will somehow work this out for me in the end. it's ok if you ignore this, but the feeling of knowing that you hiding things from me it just unexceptable for me.
it will be okay, right? (:
loves.
